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"I’m sick of this pain and I want it to end / My oldest enemy and my only friend
A blade in my hand and my life in front of me / I’m stranded between relapse and recovery."

19. girl with some tattoos, black hair and fucked up life.
I have more scars than friends.
♡ : coffee, art, tattoos, piercings, MCR, mermaid hair, horror movies, band shirts, that feeling when you want to live, food, sleeping.

TRYING TO RECOVER, BUT IT'S A CONSTANT BATTLE.
New piercing xx

New piercing xx
found out today that i’ve actually lost now almost 10kgs. i don’t look like it i know and definitely don’t feel like it. so don’t know what to think. still i can’t eat. 4days without eating. fuck i’m lost.

found out today that i’ve actually lost now almost 10kgs. i don’t look like it i know and definitely don’t feel like it. so don’t know what to think. still i can’t eat. 4days without eating. fuck i’m lost.
Been writing all day long, feels so good after a long time (stayin creative lol). Also been fasting for 47hours now, it’s ok but i could do so much better. — (Eating brings only anxiety these days. I just can’t stop this, i have to keep on going,...

Been writing all day long, feels so good after a long time (stayin creative lol).
Also been fasting for 47hours now, it’s ok but i could do so much better.
— (Eating brings only anxiety these days. I just can’t stop this, i have to keep on going, it’s not up to me anymore. Can’t stop, not until the diagnosis is back in my papers. I had it but i lost it. Yes i am really fucking pathetic but i just need to show to them that i still can do this.)

hellabloggin:

[magician voice] and for my next trick i will literally not fucking care at all about anything